the heart...

when there is time to truly forget about him, when there are space to make him out of my mind and when i'm ready to ending all the thoughts of him, he suddenly appear in front of me with a glance....the blood start to be pumping hard around the blood vessels and make my heart throbbing so fast..................are this destiny?? are this the fate?? huh, i don't know....my mind keep asking da same questions, why must him? why must him appear now?? urgh, what i should do? i don't want another same sad story when i'm hoping on him...........................should i continue hope on him or just surrender? my heart, please tell me!!!