question??

why must him?? why must him all over again inside my mind...huh...tired...why must be together??? why............

ala...

x lame ag..aku akan pindah ke bilik lame..bilik berdue ngan siti..rase mcam da sebati plak ngan bilik sorang ni...pas ni sume akan berubah..tempat study aku.....care hidup aku cre makan aku n care tdo aku..all...maybe sedikit sebanyak bakal mmengaruhi behaviour aku..dan aku harap bende tu ke arah yg lebih baek....aku harap ape yang aku imagine x kan tjadi....anyway...aku akan btol2 rindukan bilik ni sbb kt sni la aku nangis sorang2......kat sini r aku curahkan art aku...kan sni la aku dreaming about the dream world...kat sni la aku blaja, nyanyi, makan..and paling penting...kat dlam bilik ni ade kenangan2 nye yg tersendiri.................hurm..ble agak nye dpat bilik sorang ag..ha..kat jepun r kot.....at last aku tgah sabar menunggu untuk perubahan yg baru....

trying very hard............

aku tgh usahe untuk......untuk lpekan die skit2...little by little...sbb aku...sbb aku tlalu syg kt die..............................aku xnak die hurt sbb aku..aku x nak die susah sbb aku.....klu bleh, aku nak ulang mase lalu..supaye x knl die...supaya aku x jd penyebab....aku ni jahat sgt...sori ek...aku cube yg terbaik......please, don't hurt urself........because with that......i'm would by more and more hurt tooo....

please.............

please sumone...just kill me straight into the heart...its hurt being like dis...

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the heart...

when there is time to truly forget about him, when there are space to make him out of my mind and when i'm ready to ending all the thoughts of him, he suddenly appear in front of me with a glance....the blood start to be pumping hard around the blood vessels and make my heart throbbing so fast..................are this destiny?? are this the fate?? huh, i don't know....my mind keep asking da same questions, why must him? why must him appear now?? urgh, what i should do? i don't want another same sad story when i'm hoping on him...........................should i continue hope on him or just surrender? my heart, please tell me!!!